Part 1 ~ The Walks

I want to share something with all of you. It is intensely personal, and true to a life altering experience I was propelled through last summer. Today I open as me.

Additional notes: This is based on actual events and so, to protect the anonymity of real persons, no names will be used. Also, in order to write about some of the events and circumstances for which no words could accurately delineate, some of what you will read is literal and other parts are metaphorical to aid me in wafting this mystical true to life narrative. Lastly, this isn't the whole account, only an outline, a glimpse. Another time and in another place, the whole story will be told.

It Begins...

Quiescence hangs motionlessly all around me, and in every corner and crevice of my dwelling. It has been some time since laughter and love filled this space. It has been sometime since I felt... anything. The shadows of happier times dance through this stretch, and I am unaffected any longer by the promise they once represented. I lie on the floor staring out of the sliding glass doors on the rear of my abode. How I got here is not as principal, as is being here, and being open at this moment now, as is. I observe the leaves rustling on the massive tree dominating the backyard, but can hear no sound. My spirit is still. My mind has ceased its racing. My broken heart has slowed to a crawl, and the oxygen, which usually courses through my lungs, has become virtually nonexistent. I am in the throes of death, yet unafraid and without consideration. I am just here, now... as is, and in the midst of utter Holy Communion. Dialogue is being exchanged between the Creator and myself at an unrestricted pace; yet on the surface I appear slightly more than comatose. I was engaged in what would later be known to me as the last of four (4) separate walks with God.

The First instance being, a literal walk, physically through the slices of time that have made up the totality of my life's experience. Crystallizing the patterns I have always exhibited, and allowing me to step in between each sliver to identify which ones would no longer support me going forward, yet I felt tremendously grateful for every last monkey-shine and manipulation I executed then. I just knew beyond doubt that all were needed, all were integral in the evolution of me.

The Second occurrence was a literal walk, physically through the mind of man, exploring the untapped power that he possesses, and the truth of what we are here for. I noticed that some wedges were obscured from my view, but I also knew without asking that the reason for this was also to aid me in the growth of spirit I would experience by discovering this untapped resource through trial in my familiar home of space-time existence.

The Third walk was more like a literal flight through spiritual bodies of the cosmos, revealing to me the intrinsic nature Love plays in all things big and small. The energy behind the energy. The substance which springs forth all of life's relevance.

The Fourth walk was literally a direct embrace with Love itself. An eternal whirling in the arms of Love, and being given a clear direction as to the way in which Love desires to be manifest in the experience of us, through our interpersonal relationships with God, ourselves, and with others.

All one and the same.

I knew at once that this information was to be shared with anyone who would receive, in whatever and in all ways possible. I knew that I would be called to detail these journeys in written form when I was able, and I knew that it will begin with Love. More specifically, it would begin with loving. Showing that love to friends, family, and one specific woman. I received a strong sense that It would begin there, and would become something that would ultimately change the world, getting it ready for a new phase, a new level of collective consciousness that it is about to arise to. I knew then, as I know now beyond doubt, that I have an integral part in it all. I will be but just a cog in the intricate design as are we all, but my role will have a great significance because I was chosen for that role before time here began. My attributes, and characteristics, and personality have been shaped through planned experiences so that I would come to this point, at this time, and in this form, to receive this information and directed mission and be able to carry it out with the help of selected other spirit beings placed in my life.

I was not given a road map to future events, nor a portfolio on the key players who will be involved except for one. The one who would come as an unassuming agent of transfiguration. The beauty who's dark presence, shone light on the beast.

What I was given in no uncertain terms, was a general direction with which to head, and a simple one-phrase answer that would serve as a crucible to form any and all questions that I may face into the truth. Love is always the answer.

"Just proceed in Love's direction, and using that... my under girding answer for all of life, and the details to my plan of perfection will take care of themselves, just the way in which they are supposed to, the way I have willed it to be so. You will be trialed, and attacked, not believed, and judged. Your faith will be tested so that you will grow stronger in me; it is my will that you do so. You will not be perfect for that is also a part of it. You will not overcome every trial, and in failing, you will succeed, but not every time shall this be known to you, for this is also my plan. Part of my plan is you making decisions with a blind trust. In doing so, this serves a purpose, which is integral to the outcome of your spiritual growth. I trust you now with this, and I ask... will you trust me always and with everything else? The choice is truly yours now, and always. I will always Love you, for not to love you, would be to deny you are a part of me. You never were, and never will be separate from me. We are one and to separate you from I, would lessen all of us, and this I will surely never do. You have breathed in, and bathed with the love for which is, I am. I will not leave you alone, even when you can not see me working. Even when the lost, the stunted, the thinkers like children, would have you believe in their caged conceptions. I will always be present in the love that is the ultimate solution". ~ YHWH

And so it began, my journey.

To Be Continued... Next entry..."Aftermath".

God Bless ~ R